i keep falling

 So i started the year off with a viral infection in my "upper respitory system"....sayth the doctor at the Quack shack. Anyhow...i got a steroid shot..and slowly feeling better. I start at Starbucks tomorrow and i'm not all that excited...i wish i didnt have to work to jobs..but i have to be able to afford everything...it just sucks. Anyhow, thats life.

Hello summer,

As you approach, i realize how much i need you! I may have to work two jobs, but i will love your sun! I will love the morning and the night! Summer, how you rejuvenate me!


Anyhow, one final left then i'm leaving town! yay! Abilene for the Summer; my very last summer in Abilene

Officially its 6 days away...almost 5. EXCITEMENT! So easter...was pretty chill.  A little bump that was soon fixed, and all was glorious. I didn't really read like i should have...i mostly slept. I'll be spending the next week reading like crazy and cleaning in preparation for this weekend! Anyhow, i really need to read one more article and make my bed... Peace and love!

so, i'm getting ready for easter....excitement! I might actually be getting home on wednesday night. We shall see. not to much been going on...but hey..what do you do. Tests this week...bleh.

*I would lick that chocolate jesus. If its that holy and ordained...is it fat free i wonder? hmmm.... though i have a hard time eating those chocolate crosses...just feels wrong....bunnies...bunnies i can eat.

Taking a very quick break from my history of american military policy study-rama! I don't know why i do this to myself...i wait until the last minute and study my brains out. I usually make a B at worse...but i could definitely be a 4.0 student..but just can't motivate myself until the pressure is really on. I've been thinking more and more about taking a mini-break from school. I'm just tired of all of it, and its harder and harder for me to motivate myself. I thought of maybe doing this volunteering program through Vista volunteers. I would just be sent somewhere here in the U.S. to do volunteer work...kind of like an internship of sorts with meager pay. I'm just not sure. Not only that, i have about a month to figure out what i want to do exactly with my major. I've really been thinking about teaching. I would love more than anything to do U.N. work, but i just don't think i'm really cut out for it. I love history, i could teach it, and it wouldnt' be hard to load up on history classes to get that as a second major to sociology. The plan if i go that route, is to get my masters while teaching through a program A&M offers. Takes 3-4 years, night school and teaching in an inner city school...but i think i would love that too. CRISIS!!!! 

So i had been having this reoccurring dream with George Clooney where we are discussing the importance of yellow canaries. And then he invites me upstairs (we're in his basement, idk why) and he makes me spaghetti. Its weird...didn't have it for like 2 months...and yesterday..BAM had it again during a nap. I'm not sure what it means.

Easter is coming up soon, which i'm very excited about. minus the fact that i have three tests (possibly just two because one class is behind) the week that it starts. A&M is a dirty whore and instead of a lovely 4 day weekend we only get 3. Beggars can't be choosers i guess.

Heres me hoping that all goes well on my history test today. Its over WWI, Imperial Wars, WWII, and the Modernization of Military policies. The wars...no problem. I live and breath by the "Hitler channel" (otherwise known as the History Channel), so WWI and WWII piece of cake... I know most of these wars like the back of my hand..seeing as how i adore american history....which is just one long never ending "us against them" scenario.

i'm off thursday and friday!!!! i'm excited. two whole days...to do whatever i want!!! Anyhow, i'm going to call you, lunch sounds amazing. 

in other news

i got a second job. 4-8 evenings....i basically feed elderly peeps and talk politics. f u n. you know you're all jealous. But it pays alright. They also offered me a receptionist job, mornings...which sounds good. But i hate to leave my dishwashing job, because i'll leave the "crew" in a bind. except i don't care much about betty being in a bind. she's still mad at me for getting her in trouble. and we had words, and i told her to do her job and she wouldn't get in trouble. i received the death stare...i've been getting that one a lot recently. any how....any one wanna play?

i'm going to be working two jobs this summer
i'm taking a sign language class with my mom
i feel really lazy and tired today

I will be in Abilene for 3 and a half months starting tomorrow. This makes me happy...and it makes me sad. So call me call me call me!!!

today i feel moody, bitchy, tired, lethargic, and argumentative. I need to take shower but janae was washing a fucking dog in the fucking shower. And she called me racists infront of her friends when i told her i needed the shower, so she could just finish with the dog later. Then i scream something like this: "STOP BEING A FUCKING GAYLORD. FOR THE 100TH TIME, I'M NOT FUCKING RACISTS. YOU'RE JUST A BITCH, THERES A DIFFERENCE." she then loosened that screw in her neck and her head started bobbling and then the mexican rage flew out of me and this was the rest of the conversation:
Janae: who do you think you are calling me a bitch? do you know who you're talking to!?!?!
Me: I'm sarrah, and i'm calling you a bitch. If you don't like it, then stop being a one! I need the fucking shower, that dog doesn't need a bath! AND why are you washing some nasty dog where we take showers?! Did any of us say that was ok?! NO!
Janae: i'm the bitch, you're the bitch! You and Stacy walk around like the both of you are better than everyone, and really both of you are trash.
Me: well i would rather be trash than be you. You are a selfish, vain and a moronic individual. Your only true quality is your skin color. your nasty, you don't bath regularly, you don't clean up after yourself, you talk about others all the fucking time, even if they're in the room with you. Now get the fuck out of the bathroom i need a shower.
Janae: *INHALES*
Me: walks out, slams door grabs shower caddy and walk into the bathroom and takes off my pants.
Janae: ARE YOU CRAZY! I'M IN HERE!
Me: i told you i'm taking a shower, if you don't want to leave, then watch, i don't care.
Janae: runs out "She's crazy and racist!"


Ladies and gentlemen: she's going to be an RA next year...real leadership...anyhow...pissed and now i need to do my hair.

what I've been up to this week:
-not studying
-flying kites
-playing hours of hop scotch
-wiffle ball
-hanging out with audrae
-riding the buses
-sleeping

I did all of this, wednesday, thursday, and last night. I would continue adding to my list, except I'm going with Stacy to Edna this weekend. From what she tells me, its Baird except her extended family makes up a large portion of the town. hmmmmmmm.....could be interesting. Now I have to pack!